I'm sorry if I worried anyone with my previous posts. (I've removed them now)

I didn't mean to cause any havoc. Please forgive me.

I'm going to be ok.

Thanks.

I really don't feel like Rping much anymore. I want to, I miss the CR but...

I really feel like dropping. It's come to my realization I've wanted to drop for a long while now but I've always had a reason to stay.

I've been holding out in Discedo, hoping with some advise about plotting I could get inspired again... but I don't know. That isn't very realistic and I shouldn't have to rely on plots to help me RP.

I just really don't want to drop Cube unless I plan not to come back... mainly because if I drop him I can't bring him back to Discedo. He'll have to be a completely different Cube... which I don't think I could handle. It's something I agreed to when Cube asked Yuuko if she could help him keep his memories. I'm happy about him being able to keep his wish...

but I'm struggling to post in Discedo. I'm struggling to tag people and keep up with CR and just... generally RP. I thought of apping Salt many times but now apps are closed... but I don't know if that'll help anyway.

It's my own fault, but I've really lost touch with a lot of Cube's CR and when shit happens now I am so out of the loop... I have no idea whats going on. I can't keep blaming it on Cube working all the time because he isn't that kind of person. Sure, he's a workaholic but there are some people he just would drop everything for. I guess it also doesn't help he has been depressed lately. I been making him less emo and just pushing through it but he hasn't really talked to anyone.

I don't even know about the festival. He probably won't attend it. Just go see the ending ceremony and assist with clean up.

I just... I don't know what to do. It's not like I found something in life that's more interesting than RP... I just...

I don't know anymore.

TGIF

I got myself a Booth-thing. Nothing too interesting.... yet.

But I guess I'll catch up on my music Meme I kinda been putting off. Sorry for the lag. I hope this weekend proves to be more upbeat.

Day 14: A song that no one would expect you to love
I love this song but it pulls at a lot of inner turmoil I have... so I don't listen to it on repeat like most other songs I love but I do love it.
I also considered posting Your Love is my drug by Ke$ha. But I dunno if that something anyone would expect me to or not. lmao


( Day 15: A song that describes you - I Can Go The Distance - Hercules )

( Day 16: A song that you used to love but now hate - Radio - Robbie Williams )

( Day 17: A song that you hear often on the radio - Poker Face - Lady GaGa )

( Day 18: A song that you wish you heard on the radio - Banana Phone - Raffi )



( The meme itself )

Ok, forget aim crap from earlier....

So, I had this dream last night... or this morning. I dont' recall. But it was amusing because I WAS IN DISCEDO!!! and in short; I GOT TO MEET A SCIENTISTS!!! Yay~!

It wasn't any real scientist, mind you. It was one my dream made up. For some reason though, people called him Snape. He looked NOTHING LIKE SNAPE I was like *rolling eyes* but then again people think I look like Harry.... Ron.... hamai-whatever the fuck her name is... and even malfoy. C;on. Seriously? MALFOY No.

Anyhow, the dream parts I remember were.... there was this alien who was attacking our like NEW building we made in Discedo. OOOoohh Shiny new building!! (How did it get there?) With this tank thing with a giant pan-like thing sticking out the top with a strange design on it. It was wrecking havoc. I was Cube and I just kinda sighed and turned around and was gonna get something when I see mysterious person walking into a mysterious ally. Hm. Anyone else be like "Ok, normal for DIsc" but I followed him... all the way down to this nice hallway (like in a office building) and I walked right up behind him. He was emotionless, really. Except he DID jump. He was surprised I followed him (Some kinda traps should have stopped me)

( Blah blah blah... more of dream )

After speaking with my psychiatrist, I'm really stressed out and even more emotionally unstable as I was this weekend and yesterday. So, instead of reopening that wound... I'm gonna focus on my obsession.

Thinking about Cosplay today, and how I want to have props, I thought about the swallow tail's shoes and thought "Wait. I don't remember Cube ever taking his shoes off- WAIT he can't they're PANT SHOES!!!" So, I've waited all day to come home and see proof.




Cube just puts a shoe over his shoe. Silly, demon. Shoes are for feet, not for shoes.

Then again, when you wear pant-shoes, what do you expect? I can't blame this on lazy animation because Yucie is carrying her boot. Cube?

Shoe over a shoe.

I believe I rest my case. They truely are Pant-shoes.

*bows*

Now for something completely different...
( 3 things meme I stole... )

So, dudes. I've added a ton of people from Discedo with this account by accident.



Thank you. Your cooperation is muchly appreciated.

- Cube Mun

Day 13: A song that is a guilty pleasure
I know it feels like I JUST posted but I just... I can't help it. This song is so amazing.

This.... brings tears to my eyes and takes m breath away.

Day 12: A song from a band you hate

I don't know if I hate her, but I don't like a lot of her music. This song... it's not the lyrics... but I have heard it so much in my short life I am done with listening to it as soon as it comes on.

Aka: Fuck this song.


I could be mean, but I'll shut up now.

Day 11: A song from your favorite band

Truth be told... I have no favorite band. I don't follow bands. I only follow music that is beautiful or speaks to me. However, I love almost all of PKO, so I suppose.... of all the music "bands" I like... PKO has the most songs I like. Below is a Christmas Song... but I love it any time of the year.